Sometimes

You don't give a fuck.

You wanna scream but you can't.

You smoke a cigar looking for peace but anxiety grows stronger inside.

You wanna jump but you are scared.

You wanna live but you doubt.

You feel stupid and the feeling won't go away... it just stays... and it hurts.

It hurts so bad my darling... it hurts so much you don't feel it anymore.

You choke...

Sometimes.

This time.

World keeps spinning around and you're sick.

Sometimes.

This time my darling. I don't have ... words.